Hi. I bruise easily. Really.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009, 7:02 AM

87. My insecurity spews the presence of your significance.

I'd like to congratulate Amihoe for attaining her Blue-belt in Aikido! She is SURE to kick some ass, kay. She might be the hottest yet fiercest hoe ever. The two of us, side-by-side, in a boat. Spells genocide all over. :)

Plus, she met us up after Phy test awhile ago. Thank you for helping me out with some issues. It's okay - both you AND Deena aren't really the best advisors and great with your words *winks* but I can read between the lines.

Thanks hoe. Luvvv <3

Tuesday, July 28, 2009, 7:38 AM

88. ~~Cam~~Whore Day.

compre ah.

ninja.

bitches :)

snap snap.
Before PE, during PE, the aftermath of English Comprehension Test, during maths - ESPECIALLY during maths (FAIL), and right as Mr. Rahman comes through the classroom door for Lifeskills Lesson. What did mostly C, D, H and K do during these periods of time?

CAM-WHORE LIKE FUCK.
I am fucking srs here. All I can say is that
(with one of our photos which is postcard worthy) "You should have been here!" :)

All 140++ photos of em are uploaded by dear K on fcbk.

It's too bad that tmr we'd be changing places in class alrd. :(
Believe me when I say that my fklovely girls have made my day. <3

Friday, July 24, 2009, 9:32 AM

91. Feel the beat inside.

As you turned to walk away
I saw another look in your eye.
And even though it hurt like it did
I couldn't let this be a goodbye.

Ive been down the wrong road tonight
and i swear ill never go there again.
Ive seen this face once before
and i dont think i can do this again.

Double your pleasure,

double your fun.

Right?

Thursday, July 23, 2009, 4:09 AM

93. Believe me when I say, I f*cked a merman.

Amihoe and I have built a boat.

With love, laughter and sex.

Loads of sex, fo sho'.

No one will ever destroy this boat, cos'

~~I'm~~ We're On A Boat, Mothafuckas. <3

Wednesday, July 22, 2009, 5:54 AM

94. How could something that felt so good turned out to be so wrong.

YEAY DAY.

but sadly, I couldn't help but to think of you. _|_

Classes ended a little early, so I spent some time catching up with my homework + revision + photo-taking with Ms Sim & classmates - outside the school Library. O.-

Grabbed some lunch with Ms Sim + Fi and spent some time chatting. Imma' miss her. :(

Went back to school just in time to catch the members in Drama hard at work + Khairul (JK Boy) and owned his weird but really fucking dramatic warcraft-sound+pyro-like PSP game. Meh. Loved it. :)

Had our MT 'O' Levels LC and it was awesome. HAHA. I meant the atmosphere, it wasn't as bad as I thought it might have been. Raf so NOT FTW.

LOL. K just msged to remind us to finish English Speech HW + bringing of Blue Book tmr. NO MORE CHAOS AH GIRLS. Haha, love em. <3

back then you were real to me, now just a mere afterthought.

and I do admit it, that I wasn't strong enough for that sh*t.

thanks a heck lot.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009, 6:38 AM

The Evil That Men Do.

you just don't know when you start doubting yourself. killkillkill.

, 6:32 AM

powerslave.

cos' the strong falters what. nay?

, 6:13 AM

95. Bring back the green-eyed monster.

Life's been good to me. V good in fact. Let me utilize it to the maximum. I know. I lost sense of what I was writing about too.

OH. And life's not always fair. Yeah Ups, downs. Been there, done that. But who are we mortals to question? (meh. rhetorical question)

Saturday, July 18, 2009, 10:58 PM

97. Take the past, burn it up and let it go.

Tried waking brother up for TKD training at 0630 hrs. He said he'll pass. Went alone to Tamp Stadium. No one came. Waited for 45 mins. Ran 3 rounds. Took off and headed to the gym. Sign read "Gym opens at 9am". Waited. Went in at 0908 hrs. Clocked-out at 1008 hrs. Took bus home, met parents otw. Watched F.R.I.E.N.D.S whilst having lunch. Brother finally woke up.

- (with no sign of remorse) Eh Niyah, sorry ah. Today actually don't have training. The msg said next week got training, I misread the msg.

what the -

, 12:23 AM

98. No Trouble Staying Occupied.

You fall on hard times it seems
But you ain't gettin' no sympathy
No baby not from me
'Cause I told you you should never leave
See you chose this road so you gotta go it alone
Remember I told you so

Labels: Told You So - Jesse McCartney

Friday, July 17, 2009, 12:06 AM

99.

yes, we've reached them double-digits already. too soon.

Thursday, July 16, 2009, 5:42 AM

a mortal goddesses.

"The Moon, she hangs like a cruel portrait
soft winds whisper the bidding of trees
as this tragedy starts with a shattered glass heart
and the Midnightmare trampling of dreams
But on, no tears please
Fear and pain may accompany Death
But it is desire that shepherds it's certainty
as We shall see..."

She was divinity's creature
That kissed in cold mirrors
A Queen of Snow
Far beyond compare
Lips attuned to symmetry
Sought Her everywhere
Dark liqoured eyes
An Arabian nightmare...

She shone on watercolours
Of my pondlife as pearl
Until those who couldn't have Her
Cut Her free of this World

That fateful Eve when...
The trees stank of sunset and camphor
Their lanterns chased phantoms and threw
An imquisitive glance, like the shadows they cast
On my love picking rue by the light of the moon

Putting reason to flight
Or to death as their way
They crept through woods mesmerized
By the taffeta Ley
Of Her hips that held sway
Over all they surveyed
Save a mist on the rise
(A deadly blessing to hide)
Her ghost in the fog

They raped left...
(Five men of God)
...Her ghost in the fog

Dawn discovered Her there
Beneath the Cedar's stare
Silk dress torn, Her raven hair
Flown to gown Her beauty bared
Was starred with frost, I knew Her lost
I wept 'til tears crept back to prayer

She'd sworn Me vows in fragrant blood
"Never to part
Lest jealous Heaven stole our hearts"

Then this I screamed:
"Come back to Me
I was born in love with thee
So why should fate stand inbetween?"

And as I drowned Her gentle curves
With dreams unsaid and final words
I espied a gleam trodden to earth
The Church bell tower key...

The village mourned her by the by
For She'd been a witch
their Men had longed to try
And I broke under Christ seeking guilty signs
My tortured soul on ice

A Queen of snow
Far beyond compare
Lips attuned to symmetry
Sought Her everywhere
Trappistine eyes
An Arabian nightmare...

She was Ersulie possessed
Of a milky white skin
My porcelain Yin
A graceful Angel of Sin

And so for Her...
The breeze stank of sunset and camphor
My lantern chased Her phantom and blew
Their Chapel ablaze and all locked in to a pain
Best reserved for judgement that their bible construed...

Putting reason to flight
Or to flame unashamed
I swept form cries
Mesmerized
By the taffeta Ley
Or Her hips that held sway
Over all those at bay
Save a mist on the rise
A final blessing to hide
Her ghost in the fog

And I embraced
Where lovers rot...
Her ghost in the fog

Labels: Her Ghost In The Fog - Cradle Of Filth

Tuesday, July 14, 2009, 4:09 AM

it's not worth it, throwing words all over the place.

Starting Materials:

HHH, Kzel & Dee[n] on a typical day with

Humanities Workshop on after school.

The story of 3 friends.

I was devastated at her unfolding of the truth

that she was with another...

how could I have not seen?

With her, even behind my back

and after all we'd been through

you had a secret affair

... so here comes the break-up. :(

though Humans' Workshop was quite interesting after all. <3

HAHAHA afternoon session spells F-A-I-L-U-R-E every time. :)

Sunday, July 12, 2009, 6:10 AM

the possibilities are ~~endless~~ senseless.

today is such a great day. just, great.

for the first time in months, i did not feel a tinge

of worry, stress, pressure or excitement of any sort.

just calmness. relaxation. so...free, and it felt really good.

everything i did was at my own time, own-target.

how i would want this day to last. :)

PS: Thanks Dee for introducing me to the failblog. MEH. Funny shit. :D

Friday, July 10, 2009, 8:34 PM

Listen To The Bull' You're Saying.

I'll be skipping TKD session today to stay home and revise.

*sighs*

Eye hurts. Top-left section. Kinda swelling up for

God knows what reason. Felt it since the last time I cried.

Ouch. But still living, k.

warfront. life.

i'll build a fort now.

Thursday, July 9, 2009, 5:23 AM

It's a lose-lose situation for a shitty little crime.

& say helloooo to F&N Coursework Part B, Hidayah. :C

Thought of Team Raleigh suddenly.

Aah, great times. Stress-free days.

I guess camping really has something on me. :)

School doesn't suck, nah. Not at all.

But some people. Hah.

Sometimes, all we need a little punch in the jaw or a nasty fall

down a flight of stairs to learn a lesson of shutting our mouths up.

But, you know me. I don't wish for these accidents to

tragically happen to someone I may not be in good

terms with. Noooo. ;)

Received a call which told me some news about my

TKD competition, which is supposed to commence this

Saturday. However, the nice lady on the phone said that it

is being postponed to ... for some reasons. Arrgh.

All the waiting, anxiety and obscurity. & now there's MORE.

Received some more news about the reasons to why it was

being postponed. Apparently, one unlucky boy whom had entered the

same competition previously had been kicked on the head a

little too hard during his match that he had suffered from brain damage after being kicked. He later died due to the severeness of this horrific mishap.

Yeah, I was ~~OMGWTF~~ pretty shocked too. Scared, actually.

Dad said it was a freak-accident, like every other.

I couldn't agree more.

All my brother could think of was what type of kick the dude's

opponent had used on him at that very moment.

FAIL.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009, 5:28 AM

'cause Owen's joining Man Utd. :)

HAPPY SEXY SIXTEENTH BIRTHDATE, Dear St.Eve!

And after everything we've been through; bumping and grinding with stalked Thai-Teachers in STEP Camps, random piggy-back rides through campsites and playgrounds, dealing with Drama kiddos with our batch our hoes and OF COURSE getting intoxicated on almost anything and EVERYTHING. My whore. And she's older than me, no kidding. :)

My wonderful HL-drinking, high-cut using, short-skirt (sometimes, heh) wearing, buddy Stevey-Goatee. Always babe, always. <3

Ba'aaa. Whatchu' goun do? :)

Sunday, July 5, 2009, 8:24 PM

it's rest week this week for me.

a little jog here and there is fine, but

i'd have to take care of my body

(prolly more than ever) for this week.

this is simply frightening.

plus, the videos i'm watching from youtube are making me a little more ambiguous. i don't know what emotion to give either. why do i have so much fear inside. i'm supposed to be ready for this.

all this fear inside is scaring me.

Friday, July 3, 2009, 11:36 PM

HAHAHAHAHA I WON, JOY. TAKE THAT.

HAPPY 4th B'DAY, MUHD. IRSHAD, The ANGULLIA Monster!

did i say 4th? I meant 14th. :D

After everything we've been through, from wrestling with each other in Royal Rumble and tag-team matches since the first day we've met, setting up obstacle courses almost every morning if I slept-over, and for loving my brother as a really great boyfriend/nephew. XD

Meh. You Rule.

Those who don't agree can suckkkk it.

PS(to Fiefe): Irshad LOVED the Fox! He thanked you heaploads! :D

Thursday, July 2, 2009, 3:46 AM

too much is never enough.

sometimes, i despise myself so much.

i'm not a good person, i know.

i don't feel like i deserve to be where i am at times.

like, people in 3rd World countries are better off

being in my shoes, not me. BUT.

i am so complacent. i assume all the time.

i am always hesitating. i have so much fear over everything.

i don't appreciate enough. and in whenever

i want to do my best, i will always, ALWAYS fall short.

fall fall fall. and ~~never~~ barely make it.

i usually have excuses, reasons and answers to almost

every predicament, but now, i don't seem to know

anything anymore. i lost my self-esteem somewhere.

i'm not helpless, but i can't help either.

once again, keep on falling.

that's the story of your life huh.

, 3:28 AM

giveupgiveupgiveupgiveupgiveup.

3; three, tiga, tres, teen, twa, san, sam.

3 goals. only 3. for now.

3. let's accomplish it. it'll be over soon enough

3. teacher mentioned something about pain. obviously he's right.

3. sorry tree, i don't want to give you up.

Just remember that there are people who would die to be in your shoes.