Hi. I bruise easily. Really.

Monday, November 30, 2009, 10:17 PM

you sure you sure you sure you fucking hypocrite

it hurts now, everything above the hips.

only the legs are fine, thank God I didn't focus on em yesterday.

I've been peeing like crazy today. I feel like taking a piss again, and

I just went a couple of minutes ago. NO BS.

and I'm sick because there's a lack in my arsenal of fruits and veggies at home.

which just goes to show -

KIDS, they're good for you. They prevent scurvy.

, 9:15 AM

paranoia's wearing thin, desensitized now.

I addressed this letter to "dear father"
I know you is complete unknown
I guess it's better you don't bother
All our truth should be left alone
Be left alone
Be left alone

I learned all the things you never showed me
Took the chances you'd blown
And to this day, the one and only,
You'd remain complete unknown

You're out there somewhere,
But i don't know if you care, at all,
It seems that you don't
It's as if the day will never come,
So you remain a complete unknown

So many years I've been ignored,
You'd been gone without a trace

I'm getting used to knowing you're just a name without a face
Without a face
Without a face.

You're out there somewhere,
But i don't know if you care, at all,
It seems that you don't
It's as if the day will never come,
So you remain a complete unknown

I addressed this letter to "dear father"
I know you is complete unknown
I guess it's better you don't bother
All our truth should be left alone

You're out there somewhere,
But i don't know if you care, at all,
It seems that you don't
It's as if the day will never come,
So you remain a complete unknown

YOU DON'T CARE FUCK YOU REALLY DON'T.

Labels: Dear Father - Sum 41

, 9:05 AM

shadows by her feet - like violence, you kill me, forever and after.

And I nearly blew it.

Sometimes I think why the hell do I even bother.

Maybe I please others too much, when in the end they don't do the same for me.

The equivalent to nobody caring.

Once again, why do I even bother.

Oh dear, now I'm feeling selfish instead.

Maybe I should just keep everything inside the next time round.

My bad, it always is.

, 8:59 AM

fatal flaw.

It's hard to wake up
When the shades have been pulled shut
This house is haunted
It's so pathetic
It makes no sense at all.
I'm ripe with things to say
The words rot and fall away.
If a stupid poem could fix this home
I'd read it every day.

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost.
It's not right

Their anger hurts my ears
Been running strong for seven years
Rather than fix the problems, they never solve them
It makes no sense at all
I see them every day
We get along so why can't they?
If this is what he wants and this is what
she wants
Then why is there so much pain?

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost
It's not right

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost
It's not right

Labels: Stay Together For The Kids - Blink 182

Sunday, November 29, 2009, 8:37 AM

'cause right now,

THE WORD LOVE DOES NOT MEAN A THING TO ME ANYMORE.

Saturday, November 28, 2009, 8:23 AM

i feel like throwing up.

and after all that's said and done,

I'd never raise my children the way you did to yours.

And it just adds to the negative thinking that

guys simply cannot be trusted, even if they are in their 60s.

Friday, November 27, 2009, 10:13 AM

because you don't love her. (enough)

Should we try this before we give up and move on
And pretend to restore what we have and hold on

At times like this, it's obvious.

, 9:56 AM

keep practising till you get it right.

I LOVE YOUR 'THANK YOU'S.

so thank you too :D

Thursday, November 26, 2009, 8:16 AM

"Do you know where G2000 is?" "SEBELAH." *flails & dies*

contradictory life, for now.

PEOPLE PEOPLE HEAD ON DOWN TO EXPO FOR THE JOHN LITTLE'S SALE. fackin' awesome apparels. + I.T FAIR. >:D

there's too many things to say,

so I think it's best if I say nothing more.

Goodbye.

Monday, November 23, 2009, 9:41 AM

promenade/lemonade.

FAVOURITES.

with these pictures, there's only one thing to say:

that today, I have single-handedly owned most of the guys in terms of height.

so yes, fear me.

>:D

and yes, my classmates are awesome.

once again, happy birthday to those whom we've wished at exactly 12mn just awhile ago, and you guys are lucky we couldn't do the bash. oh well. :)

farewell my lovely schoolmates,

we'll meet once again comes Jan 2010!

Sunday, November 22, 2009, 9:00 AM

we're just fine doing what we we like, can we say the same for you?

get jigg(l)y with it.

we count till 4, only then we'll start doing our crunches.

gobb gobbz. I wish we had taken the bus instead.

and it's time to go guyclotheshunting. v soon.

till then, bhroes apparels shall I have on me!

Saturday, November 21, 2009, 6:49 PM

douche-ness at its finest.

why can't you get it?

JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE ALONE, DOESN'T MEAN YOU'RE LONELY.

people get a grip!

, 6:03 AM

oh. just beep me when you're dead, just so I know.

CRAZY.

ahahahaha I want to do something productive.

for example - STOP SPENDING $$.

Friday, November 20, 2009, 9:43 AM

DRY.

ushadasudhsfisdhushdha when is their next season coming up >:O

, 4:19 AM

I've only got myself to blame.

thinking of you.

Thursday, November 19, 2009, 4:23 AM

mary mooooooooooooooooo...ooon !

Whoa less than 24 just staying at home with nothing much to do.

Damn. Reminds me of a lot of things. But.

Meh. The phone's beeping. I'm eagerly waiting for more of em

TPRawks photoshots.

Hoodies Oooiiieee. :D

okay so I do miss TP.

From their 'WELCOME' wagons to Jam&Hop. Daymn.

And the Blue Hoodie's BOOMZ-clap, forthefuckingwin.

(L)

, 12:14 AM

noon.

i woke up today, the first thing that came to my mind -

Dragon Boating.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009, 9:06 AM

ALL OF YOU ARE SO NOT COOL!

Rawkers representing th 5 Awesome Groups!

Glam Purple - Quite Sissy

Afro Green - SO 70s

Punk Red - Chao Abeng

Groovy Orange - Too bright to see

Blue Hoodies - So nice to see

See some more must pay money

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg hahahaha the TPRawks hype. wtf.

I can't believe that it's still in me. Right now.

At 1.08am in the next morning.

Ah well. So jam & hop wasn't bad at all.

DANCE DANCE FOR YOU TO SEE. Siow ah.

wait long long. in your dreamz.

Kay Blue Hoodies FTW. <3

PLs and CLs were amazing. But I disagree;

I don't deserve the best rawker award/whatever.

WE ALL DID. BLUE BLUE HOODIES HOODIES :D

and. I did a little bump&grind with Maddie there.

had to force her to dance. she finally caved in. danced with meh.

I think halfway through I actually gave a random guy a hug.

HOE FAILED. oxymoron at it's best. :D

Sunday, November 15, 2009, 8:02 AM

we didn't start the fire.

I DON'T GET IT.

I REALLY FUCKING DON'T.

Saturday, November 14, 2009, 8:11 AM

modern warfare and waffles will be served to you shortly.

Zharfan 'Farro' + gym = afternoon GONE.

came back home just to realize that brother Yat just wanted to head to the gym. COULD'VE GONE WITH ME MAN. sjhdauashdjshfds.

spent the evening/night @ East Coast with F.

it was friggin' cold, but we sat under the drizzle anyw.

gotta send ma luvv and appreciation for the awesome night.

plus the totally rad gift.

MEH.

Friday, November 13, 2009, 5:15 AM

that's so pretty! ...anddddd now I don't care.

so a couple of the drama kids got hungover.

but hey, you can't just stop us from being hoes.

The 3 amazing ones above + Khai + Muhi (tho' I didn't get to meet him; fucker left us so early for fucking Giant) caught each other up for a little bit. Man, I missed them a lot. (L) Still want to catch up with the rest from Drama real soon too, before we all go our separate ways. Sorry for being a little shabby there at first AND for being late + bailing off the 9bucks, guys, but after finding out where I really come from and figuring out our family tree, you guys have certainly made this Friday th 13th a fucksome one. <3

Thursday, November 12, 2009, 9:43 AM

spent the first part of the a.m this awkward Friday by watching Paranormal Activity on the net. DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN. :D

Wednesday, November 11, 2009, 8:34 AM

SAY WHUT?!

so we sipped through tom yam seafoods and watched studded heels come and go.

Next stop: Chasing the hours. MY hours.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009, 8:47 AM

-. Question of science, science and progress do not speak as loud as my heart.

I know where I am.

I know where you are.

Yet I don't have a clue of where we might be.

nobody said it was easy,

no one ever said it would be this hard.

*shrugs*

Sunday, November 8, 2009, 5:11 AM

-. DEDICATED TO SAWYER all all those who have been worthy of swimming off shore and onto THE boat.

Aww shit, get your towels ready it's about to go down (shorty, yeah)
Everybody in the place hit the fucking deck (shorty, yeah)
But stay on your motherfucking toes
We running this, let's go

I'm on a boat (I'm on a boat)
I'm on a boat (I'm on a boat)
Everybody look at me 'cause I'm sailing on a boat (sailing on a boat)
I'm on a boat (I'm on a boat)
I'm on a boat
Take a good hard look at the motherfucking boat (boat, yeah)

I'm on a boat motherfucker take a look at me
Straight floating on a boat on the deep blue sea
Busting five knots, wind whipping at my coat
You can't stop me motherfucker cause I'm on a boat

Take a picture, trick (trick)
I'm on a boat, bitch (bitch)
We drinking Santana champ,
Cause it's so crisp (crisp)
I got my swim trunks
And my flippie-floppies
I'm flipping burgers, you at Kinko's
Straight flipping copies

I'm riding on a dolphin, doing flips and shit
The dolphin's splashing, getting everybody all wet
But this ain't Seaworld, this is real as it gets
I'm on a boat, motherfucker, don't you ever forget

I'm on a boat and
It's going fast and
I got a nautical themed
pashmina afghan
I'm the king of the world
On a boat like Leo
If you're on the shore,
then you're sure not me-oh

Get the fuck up, this boat is REAL!!!

Fuck land, I'm on a boat, motherfucker (motherfucker)
Fuck trees, I climb buoys, motherfucker (motherfucker)
I'm on the deck with my boys, motherfucker (yeah)
This boat engine make noise, motherfucker

Hey ma, if you could see me now (see me now)
Arms spread wide on the starboard bow (starboard bow)
Gonna fly this boat to the moon somehow (moon somehow)
Like Kevin Garnett, anything is possible

Yeah, never thought I'd be on a boat
It's a big blue watery road (yeah)
Poseidon
Look at me, oh (all hands on deck)

Never thought I'd see the day
When a big boat coming my way
Believe me when I say
I fucked a mermaid

I'm on a boat
I'm on a boat
Everybody look at me 'cause I'm sailing on a boat (woaah)
I'm on a boat
I'm on a boat
Take a good hard look at the mothafuckin' boat (sha-sha-shorty, shorty, yeah)

Labels: I'm On A Boat - TheLonelyIsland

Saturday, November 7, 2009, 11:16 PM

-. thank you.

Cry out, all who cared to know
I've been, hollow way to long
I know where I'm going wrong

There's nothing I can do, I believe you can get me through
It's you that I believe in
Nothing else will do, I believe you can get me through
So can you stop the bleeding
Ooooooooh....get me through
Ooooooooh....yeah

Color blind, I paint your blue sky grey
But this time, you'll shed some light on me
Just before I fade away

There's nothing I can do, I believe you can get me through
It's you that I believe in
Nothing else will do, I believe you can get me through
So can you stop the bleeding
Ooooooooh....get me through
Ooooooooh....yeah

All the chances that you've taken
Promises that I keep breakin down
Writings on the wall
Can't make out all the letters
But I know its getting better now
The writings on, the writings on the wall

Get me through...

There's nothing I can do, I believe you can get me through
It's you that I believe in
Nothing else will do, I believe you can get me through
So can you stop the bleeding

Labels: Get Me Through - Daughtry

, 6:01 AM

-. never wound something you can't kill.

Sister, I'm not much a poet, but a criminal
And you never had a chance
Love it, or leave it, you can't understand
A pretty face, but you do so carry on,
and on,
and on

I wouldn't front the scene if you paid me
I'm just the way that the doctor made me, on,
and on,
and on,
and on
Love is the red the rose on your coffin door
What's life like, bleeding on the floor,
the floor,
the floor

You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
Give me a reason to believe

[Chorus]
So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
And make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will

Preach all you want but who's gonna save me?
I keep a gun on the book you gave me, hallelujah, lock and load
Black is the kiss, the touch of the serpent son
It ain't the mark or the scar that makes you one,
and one,
and one,
and one

You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
Give me a reason to believe

So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
And make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will

You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
You wanna follow something
Give me a better cause to lead
Just give me what I need
Give me a reason to believe

So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
And make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will

Labels: Thank You For The Venom - MCR

, 3:14 AM

-. 'cause I have a double-decker bed now, and I miss meth.

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY BROTHER FIQ. <3

Friday, November 6, 2009, 3:10 AM

-. too far gone; doesn't mean you can't get it back.

so,

I may have a serious thing for muscles.

Thursday, November 5, 2009, 11:03 AM

-. the young and the not so hopeless.

maybe its because of all the hype of the Os, but

I had some good ol' Vitamin C after brushing my teeth.

who knew that chemistry applied strongly here.

the aftertaste was OMGWTF.

the oranges tasted like vomit. I AM NOT FUCKING KIDDING HERE.

hahahaha no doubt there was a kick, and

I guess, that's all that matters!

, 8:51 AM

-. diet coke and a pizza please.

goes to school + forgets shoes + comes home from school in the rain + goes jogging at 11pm + comes back and cools down for an hour + still playing hits on the computer at 12.52am + possibility of playing Fifa10 on the PS3 system through the night

= my brother.

this is one of the reasons why I'd never go FML.

, 4:39 AM

-. WE ARE GOLDEN. MTHRFCKNG GOLDEN.

i fucking need my hoes, quick.

i fucking need the gym, asap.

working out at home is just not working out.

idk if it's PMS or something but i really, REALLY

need a fucking punching bag right now.

yet there's 1 thing I'll never say, no matter how down

i can possibly get - Fuck My Life.

'cause you'll never know just how bad others are having it.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009, 11:54 PM

-. It's So Irrational, YOU Getting Away With Murder.

'cause I've done it before

And I can do it some more

I've got my eyes on the score

I'm gonna cut through the floor

I feel fucking irrational. I really do.

Like I've lost half of what life used to mean to me.

I REALLY DON'T NEED THIS SHIT.

, 11:44 PM

-. And then you stagger to the feet and out the door, 'cause there's no second chance.

I wanna talk to you
{The last time we talked Mr. Smith you reduced me to tears
I promise you that won't happen again}

Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty? Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

Yeah, I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I tried a little Freddie
I've gone identity mad!

I could be brown, I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful, I could be purple
I could be anything you like

Gotta be green, gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!

{Getting angry doesn't solve anything}

How can I help it? How can I help it?
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby, hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink

Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on your shelf?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I tried a little Freddie
I've gone identity mad!

I could be brown, I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful, I could be purple
I could be anything you like

Gotta be green, gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Walk out the door!

Say what you want to satisfy yourself, hey!
But you only want what everybody else
Says you should want, you should want

I could be brown, I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful, I could be purple
I could be anything you like

Gotta be green, gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Walk out the door!

I could be brown, I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful, I could be purple
I could be anything you like

Gotta be green, gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Walk out the door!

{Humphry, we're leaving}
Kaching!

Labels: Grace Kelly - MIKA

, 7:30 AM

-. THEY WASTE IT AWAY JUST BECAUSE OF THEIR INABILITY TO SMILE PROPERLY.

watching RAW after what felt like 2891948u0q01 years.

wait what there are alphabets in there.

and I swallowed the toothpaste. again.

I guess I just never learn.

aw fuck it.

, 3:27 AM

-. she wolf, no need for a disguise.

asked mum to get some fruits at home.

yeah, F&N's really got me feeling guilty.

NEEDSGYMNOWWWWWW.

mum came home and I helped unpacked the groceries.

suddenly, i felt as if i had fallen deep into an abyss.

(only for a brief moment)

let me correct my statement as said in the previous post.

This obscurity AND ICE CREAMS will be the death of me.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009, 6:26 PM

-. blood on my hands.

to right now.

i'm fucking anxious about the Os results, even before the whole shit is over.

especially knowing that I've screwed up a few of the papers,

I'm unconfident now. wires in my brains are tangled up again.

the suspense is just too much, it's crazy, really!

this obscurity will be the death of me.

promise.

, 5:57 AM

-. WHAT A KALABUNGA PIECE OF BULLSHIT.

oh my.

i nearly puked my brains out.

i really did. almost.

just 'cause i read corny messages.

na-uh, not before my papers!

barf-able.

, 3:08 AM

-. chap stick, chapped lips and things like chemistry.

Rule #3 in my HHH handbook :

"If you want things done right, you've gotta' do it yourself."

Yeah. I guess I do make the rules as I go.

Monday, November 2, 2009, 9:31 PM

-. Asmodeus has got the better of you.

'cause the Os are going to be done and over with in a couple.

but you and I?

not quite.

lest I already feel like giving up.

but I don't believe that I'm such a horrible friend, no.

that's why I'm still lingering.

Did St.Eve today. REALLY DID.

Steve-ed the whole morning out.

I miss Drama loads.

Not just Drama, th' drama kids. All of em. :/

Made Eve take the bus today. HEH HEH. OKAY WTF.

Yes, I guess I did have the answers:

Everyone Makes Mistakes.

Oh I love my hoes. (L)