wake you up
in the middle of the night to say
I will never walk away again
I'm never gonna leave this bed

tell me the wars you're fighting
behind the smile you're hiding
all of the things you want to say
we tried our best to find us
there are no lights to guide us
I can't sleep beside a stranger now


piece by piece we fall apart
with every beat slows down my heart


so I'll just say what you won't say
and I'll take the blame if it's for your sake
no turning back on what you can't save
we're so far gone

I heard that you're a player
so listen
I'm the coach

miss you guys :')
I know, we have a love-hate relationship with school and all,
but you guys will always make it better.
Hoping we'll be in the same class again, the three of us, like it used to be.
<3

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness gets us both
I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know then you can't care
And I show up but you're not there
But I'm waiting and you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday with every word whispered
We get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing last forever but be honest, babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A web that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving all it makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
Never let it fall apart
Strangely I wish secretly It won't fall down while I'm asleep
If you don't know then you can't care
And I show up but you're not there

But we have not hit the ground
Doesn't mean we're not still falling
I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame I hope you find somewhere

To place the blame
But until then the fact remains
Everyday with every word whispered
We get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
Nothing last forever, but be honest, babe It hurts
But it may be the only way

Labels: Nothing Lasts Forever - Maroon 5

no or go.

You push me
I don't have the strength to resist or control you
So take me down
You hurt me
But do I deserve this?
You make me so nervous
Calm me down
So fall down
I need you to trust me
Go easy, don't rush me
Help me out, why won't you help me out?

baby there you go again, there you go again, making me love you

I must be so high, 'cause I thought I remembered us talking about the future...


OUR future

and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
your presence still linger here
and it won't leave me alone


this wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

at times like these, I know, you don't want me to exist
you're not the only one, I'm very sure

me too.

You got it on your own accord and shared it with your best friend, along with your secrets and heartfelt stories.

Hoping that by so, it eases your pain and at the same time lessen the guilt,
Making yourself seem like less of a sinner.
But you’re a hypocrite, that’s what you are.
You’ve let people get into your head, when you were stronger than that.
You’ve allowed people come close enough to hurt you, and now that you feel damaged inside,
You just choose to lose yourself and do the things you’ve always looked down upon.
How do you look at yourself in the mirror anymore, what do you think of yourself now?
Let me be the first to tell you that I love you, so much, but you and your actions,
Have fucking disgusted me so much, and I, I have all the right to judge you.

From here and now, you only have 2 choices left.
You can’t go back to the way you were, you cannot bring back the past and try to re-live your days and moments of glory.
It is life, we move on.
You either pick yourself up from wherever you are now, no matter how low you are, how pitiful you feel about yourself, find the courage, confidence and trust to pull yourself together and be a stronger person, day by day, step by step.
Or, you could just live as the person you never wanted to be, doing the things that used to appall you and your guilty conscience shall always haunt you every single moment you are awake.
It really is your call.

Think about the important things that do matter to you, put all those that don’t away.
C’mon girl, you can do it. I know you can.
Go.

ever so grateful to have you two with me.
I love you both, so much...I can't explain it.
it wasn't my choice to be born with you, but I'm so glad that we share
the same flesh and blood, my love and trust in the both of you shall always remain.
Forever, and always, always, always.

But my eyes are open
This modern denial
Has me broken
but never cry for the ones you love!)

Labels: Warrior - Kimbra Ft. Mark Foster

There's a darkened sky before me 
There's no time to prepare 
Salvage a last horizon 
But no regrets from me 

Maybe I'll be back some other day 
To live again just who can say 
In what shape or form that I might be 
Just another chance for me 


 A hurried time no disgrace 
Instead of racing to conclusion 
And wishing all my life away 
No-one can stop me now 


 Time is up it couldn't last 
But there's more things I'd like to do 
I'm coming back to try again 
Someday maybe I'll wait till then 


 No more lies... 

it's not a stroll in the park.
nowhere close.

I'm so tired of being here 
 Suppressed by all my childish fears 
 And if you have to leave 
 I wish that you would just leave 
 'Cause your presence still lingers here 


 And it won't leave me alone 
 These wounds won't seem to heal 
 This pain is just too real 
 There's just too much that time cannot erase 


 When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears 
 When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all these years
You still have all of me

hehe mooo