so what can I say? ;)

choose between your head and heart

going overly enthusiastic and unbelievably charmed  in the office by these guys
I can't stop watchinggggggggg


Oh, and hi Siva.
*flails*

I hear your heart cry for love
But you won't let me make it right.
You were hurt, but I decided
That you were worth the fight

Every night, you lock up
You won't let me come inside
But the look in your eyes
As I can turn the tide

In your heart, in your heart, in your heart,
I can tell you can fit one more
In your heart, in your heart, in your heart,
I don't care who was there before

I hear your heart cry for love,
Then you act like there's no room
Room for me, or anyone,
"Don't disturb" is all I see
Close the door, turn the key,
On everything that we could be
If loneliness would move out, I'd fill the vacancy

In your heart, in your heart, in your heart,
In your heart, in your heart, in your heart.

This ain't the Heartbreak Hotel
Even though I know it well
Those no shows, they sure tell
In the way you hold yourself

Don't you fret, should you get
Another cancellation
Give me a chance I'd make a
Permanent reservation

In your heart, in your heart, in your heart
I can tell you can fit one more
Open up make a brand new start
I don't care who's stayed before

I hear your heart cry for love,
Then you act like there's no room
Room for me, or anyone,
"Don't disturb" is all I see
Close the door, turn the key,
On everything that we could be
If loneliness would move out, I'd fill the vacancy.

When I, talk to you, on the phone
Listen close..

Labels: Heart Vacancy - The Wanted

we'll take a breather...
and slowly
recover.

A new beginning.
I think it's what we both need
otherwise, it's unhealthy, our thoughts and feelings lingering like that.

I'm finished making sense 
Done pleading ignorance 
That whole defense 
 Spinning infinity 

Boy, the wheel is spinning me 
It's never ending, never ending 
Same old story

You and I both don't deserve such messed up and shitty weekends
it seems that we've been trying to fix this all this while
but it's something far beyond out abilities

I've been trying to help you all this while, I've extended my hand way more than I should and did to anyone else, but with all the chances given and laid out for you, you still claimed that there's been none. You....YOU fail to see those opportunities, all that I've given you, until it's too late.

Whenever I try to help you, advise you, sometimes in a more than harsh way by scolding you, it's all for you to change into a better person, because you've told me that you want to change to be a better person for me, for us. And yet you don't heed my advise, you push my words away and apologize after...and the process repeats. Why apologize when you're not going to learn from it and just let the cycle repeat?

'cause I'm done with the childishness of letting mistakes pass by for the sake of saving feelings, we've saved our feelings far enough, it really is time for a change. If you won't change like how you've promised, then, we'll change. You've always wanted me in your life, but when I'm there, you just shut me off and treat me as if I'm nothing to you. The sense...the senselessness in that puzzles me. Most of all, it hurts me, so much.

And I have to think for myself now.
'cause if I don't, noone else will.
And I don't deserve to hurt myself, in the means of you,
I don't want this treatment anymore.
For the sake of my health, my sanity, my own state now...

Even after reading all this, I know exactly what you're reaction will be
that I DON'T UNDERSTAND YOU
but have you ever tried understanding me??
Understand what I've been trying, for the longest time, to get into that thick skull of yours?
You'll still say that you've had no chances,
no love
nobody
WHEN I'VE BEEN HERE ALL THIS WHILE.

With the whole of my heart, I've loved you, still do, maybe, will always. That's why I always come back, never felt strong enough to let you go, never thought that I needed to.

But
I can't let you kill me slowly any further...
I have to go away from you
I can't have you anymore
No more...

sometimes
we have to forget what we're feeling
and know what we deserve

recent birthdays: Ibu, Amirah-Adio and Yat
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY FAVOURITE PEOPLE! <3 p="p">

Yeah, we're locked up in ideasWe like to label everythingWell, I'm just gonna do here what I gotta do here'Cause I gotta keep myself free

You're ducking and movingJust to hide your bruises from all your enemiesAnd I'm in the crossfire dodging bulletsFrom your expectancies, yeah yeah

We've got nothing to loseYou better run and hideYou crossed the lineI've got a knife behind my back, just sayin'

We've got nothing to proveYour social guides give you swollen eyesBut what I've got can'tBe bought so you can just

Call it what you want

You've taken your words and you take your judgmentsAnd stick them onto everythingIf it don't conform to what you were born intoThen you run the other way

You say, "Now what's your style andWho do you listen to?" Who cares?Well, that rat race ladder-climbingFake-face smile's got nothing on me

SO CALL IT WHAT YOU WANT

Labels: Call It What You Want - Foster The People

can't stop watching Scenes From A Hat and Propsssssssssss

CLASS.
something that my pet cat has and you don't.
Before I use more cuss words that perfectly describe you but will subconsciously bring my mood down for the day, I suggest you crawl back to the dumps (not literally 'cause your family and friends are nice, you're the only prick who's there) of which you came from and leave me alone. You were a fucking liability and never an asset to me now that I've come to realise. I've apologized on my part, now, if you want to keep bad-mouthing me like you've always done, go ahead, I won't get bothered about it anymore. Because I've lost that "friendship" of ours - just take yourself and find someone else. You've always told me that you've never met someone like me? There are others who are close, but guess what, you only deserve those whores that you claim to despise. Who's the contradiction king now, douchebag.

you become
what you let yourself be
what you let others make of you
what you let yourself do (to yourself and to others)
not necessarily what you say
but how and why you say it
and if you don't like what you are or have become
you can always,
ALWAYS
change you
'cause as obvious as it sounds, the fact of the matter is that
you are YOU
and only YOU can change....well, you.

no matter if you are bottling up your feelings because of the insecurities, or being the extrovert that everyone seem to love on the surface - everyone wants to figure who they truly are, what they really want to do, and what is the true meaning of happiness.

me too.

just....don't let the process be too harsh and gets you down in the dumps for too long instead, that's not the way it's supposed to be.

=)

waiting for my grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrl

had a splendid weekend (because of the amazing array of food) but also thanks the the great company!
From nasi kukus @ Upper Thompson to Irah's (mom bought) indian rojak and finally ending the weekend off with Pastamania's meat-lover's baked rice, mmm mmm MMM this weekend had been off the chain. Plus, the "Drama Raya" had been so awesome, 9 hours to complete only 3 houses huh!
Can't wait to see you guys again


xoxo

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror
Looking back at you

You say you're leavin
As you look away
I know theres really nothin left to say
Just know i'm here
Whenever you need me
I'll wait for you

Take your time i wont go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

I can't get close if your not there
I can't get inside if theres no soul to bear
I can't fix you
I can't save you
Its something you have to do

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see
What you need to see
When you find you
Come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

Labels: Come Back To Me - David Cook

'cause I don't have to please you
if i never wanted to, never needed to, I won't.
Now stop blaming my ego for that,
I just know what I'm worth.

so nice!!!!!!!!!!

the past weeks...

you already know what's coming....